"DA PLAN "

Self Improvement Guidelines from San dot Blazer (yeah that evil genius again :) ).

WASSUP People !! How u all been ? I am alive and kicking hard ..thanks for all ur concerns ..LOL.

Just back from a home trip ….finally went on a house boat cruise with ma mates ( imagine ..first time in my life …inspite of being a native of kerala) twas totally awesome .

Alrite...alrite ..lets get to the real stuff now .

Remember what I said about me trying to be happy all the while ….well I have been practicing that shit for 1 whole month now and you know what ?? Results are fucking sexed out .

I am having a whale of a time these days …..no worries no tension..always in my zone .
By the way zone is what I use to describe my special head zone where I am congruent and comfortable with myself all the time .

Pretty much how all those sports stars go into when they r playing . They always try to get into the zone ...they never get the fear of defeat in that zone .....thats when they are unbeatable .

So what have I been upto ? I've been busy making what i call 'The PLAN' ..its the ulimate shyt yo (trying my fake ghetto accent)

This is the plan i have put up for myself for being happy all the time and improve my LIFE on the whole . follow the plan to the dot and i assure u wont' be depressed ever again ..... u will live a fuller..whole hearted life .

I have been working on the draft and would be soon coming out with the full proof version . So this is it…….Sanblazer’s 10 tips on improving mine/ur life a.k.a ..The PLAN .

1) Start Playing …

I have picked up basketball again and its been doing wonders to me …. I have been playing every day for solid 2 hours and the work out is getting my testosterone levels going up like crazy . All good all good...niggah

I am gonna be hitting the gym soon.. I want to pump iron ...nothing can beat the confidence one gets from having freaking fit body .

For the uninintiate ..testosterone is a pulpy orange juice produced by coca cola ..ha ha ..just kidding …..

2) Start Reading .

I used to be a voracious reader when I was younger ....used to read shit loads of book....somehow the habit got lost along the way … I am picking it again and its fun .
Read self improvement ..read cookery book …read any thing ..as long as u do it for half an hour a day .

3) Start Listening to different Music .

I have decided to experiment with my music tastes more .....started listening to a lil bit of jazz these days ..and i find it nice . Got myself a john coltrane station created in pandora.

You all should check out this website called pandora.com ..its like a online radio where u can setup ur on radio station with the artist or songs of ur preference and it will play same/similar genre of music . Also u can create multiple radio station ....total sick ass cool stuff .

4) Go shopping .
Gift urself or someone something every week ….I am not saying spend gazillion amount of money on shopping ..spend it wise .

5) start cooking… I suck at this …and really really want to improve on this ....,meanwhile no gas at ma place …

Note to Raj (my roommate ) we need to do some about it soon bro .

6) Movie Nights.

Plan to watch one movie every week in a theater . to watch a movie…hmmm …Monday’s are nice .. u know what ??it would be nice to plan something special for 2 times in a week ..say Monday movie night …or Thursday…video games( playstation) nights and so on .. invite ur friends over …have a blast .

7) Get social …. I am no good at this …but want to improve mann….want to meet new people ….but saala not getting enough time . defn need to work on this …
(Note to myself )

Go meet some new people …..talk to them . shed ur inhibitions .
Start talking to complete strangers .

8) Get urself a nice hobby …

yea yeah ..i know every guy’s favourite …Guitars ..how chicks dig guys who play guitar and stuff .. but what I mean to say..don’t do something coz others find it cool …find out something which u r really passionate about …even if its sawing peoples limbs in a dark isolated bathroom .. wait .... i was just kidding u crazy psycho..ha ha :)

so the idea is do something that will raise ur stock value in ur own sight and not on some one else’s .
Like I would love to get into amateur dramatics .. (one of my hidden passion..will tell u some interesting stories about my past drama life later )
If u r tiny or weak hearted ..join martial arts or something .

9) Surf the nET …don't be a bloody key jockey and spend every nook and time working., chatting or on orkut ….spend some generous but limited amount of time reading some shit on the net .one can't imagine the amount of information in it .

10)Time FUcKING Management ……. To do all of the above and much more ..u defn need t pan out ur time table …sick ..really need to work on this shit ..planning to read 7 habits of highly effective people ….stepehen covey (one genius retard ) talks about planning ur whole life for the better . GET THAT BOOK ..read it mofo.

Proud of You ALL ,

Love
San DASH blazer aaaa…..

"Let It Go"

Blogging they say is like drugs "once u start, u just cannot write enough " ... I am begining to agree to that philosophy .


Its just been couple of weeks since I wrote my first one ... a heart felt outpour of my dark emotions found place in the first one . Reactions I got for that has not been all that pleasant ...starting with my best buddy calling me a crazy lunatic, it varied to various other levels of profinities ..hardly presentable in a public blogging corner :)


Here I am with my second offering , already. This one is a lighter one .

Oh and btw , I had absoultely no need to make this a light one ...why should I ? just coz other people say my previous one was dark ….

Then why am I doing it ?? To find out ..Keep Reading .


“They say shit happens !!! why does it happen so many times with me “ ( cliché , I know ).

Truth of the matter is ....Shit has happened to me so many times ... been forced to Stare down the barrel so many times that, I've come to realize something important.

It is
"Shit Happens ....
So Wot's new .....
Who cares mann "

what keeps me going is the knowledge that wotever happens I will always bounce back . NO MATTER WHAT !!

OK, I could continue talking about my deep inner mental strength for a while ,but Readers may find it boring ...Oh and btw I really don't have to give a damn as to how readers feel ?? its my blog and I can write wotever I very well please to .

BUT NO !! with my new found attitude , I do care about ur feelings ??

Wait a sec, Hold on !! where is this post going ?? am I talking about the new adversities of my life or My new attitude or am I just talking plain shit ….


Call it sudden Enlightment ....Call it sudden change of Tide .....U can Say I was stuck by a Lightning on my way home , Wotever :)

But the events of past couple of weeks have made me do some serious rethinking of "How I want My life to be".

I Have realized that core mission in my life is not what i used to think it was ?


The ONLY thing imp to me up until now was the greed for materalistic positions (Car , Crazy villa with a pool ,my dream Jaguar okv3).

OK now don't mistake me here ..I have not stopped dreaming about Money ,Car, Condo ….Yatch etc....Yes, I still yearn to achieve them ,thats what keeps me driving .

But whether I achieve them or not , does not have any influence over my current emotional state.

After a battle with depression and anxiety in life I came to a conclusion

"Dreams are important ..but wot's more important is to be happy and congurent with what u have, right here , right now... at this moment .

Be Happy... Not neccessarily Content ( there is a HUGE difference ,although some purists may disagree )


IF you really want something badly in life . ...You should be prepared to let it go .

Because Nothing is so important that it comes at the cost of ur happiness.

Ask any severely depressed person if there is any material possession that could cheer them up?

Ask them if they would rather have $100 million dollars or to wake up and feel joy again?

Ask Britany Spears if she would rather be famous or sane?

New attitude ..

Bring smile to people’s faces.

Wake up in the morning with a smile in your face .... Go to Sleep with one

Be thankful for what u have in life .

Be HAPPY EVERY FUCKIN MOMENT :)

Make people around you Happy

Let It GO .....

LovE ...

SanBlazer.

"Voices from Hell "

“Voices From Hell “

Hmmmm…so u are a death metal purist ....pain is what u’ve felt through out
Darkness is what u ensemble ,devil is whom u pray. U r a pissed-off, alienated guy who is purposefully dwelling on the uglier side of life, or else are trying to temporarily escape it by achieving some sort of catharsis.

What voice do u associate more with ……

Growling ….Which lets out the animal venom filled deep inside(which u can relate to ) .
OR
Clean Singing …..seemingly pussy way of letting out ur hatred .Why not ‘ Justin Timberlake’ if u want to hear a wuss sing , right ??

I myself prefer the type of singing which intermixes melodic clean singing
With fearsome death metal growling …..a style popularised by mother
Of all death metal bands OPETH …

Despite cries of protests from thousands of fans all around…Opeth pours
Huge doses of clean singing into their songs . ..
Nnow its upto us fans to perceive it the way we want it to .

Is clean singing an irritating addon to ur fine master piece ....or is it that, one fails to fathom the relevance of the piece or worst still , ‘understand the song’ .


To illustrate what I mean ….. I have chosen the song ‘Bleak’ by Opeth as my thesis .

I will try to explain my reason as to why Opeth combines both the forms of Vocal in this song .

I will try and project the meaning of this song ( as I see it ) along the way …..

Do Clean voice telecast the same message as growling do ?

My endeavour is to prove whether clean singing is justifiable for such a master black metal band .


Alrite ….Here is how I see it …..

What goes on this song is a two way conversation
Between a troubled , languished human and the DEVIL


Devil is frustrated as the daylight is fast approaching and
He is still not able to lure his prey ….and he is frustrated with
This futile attempt .Frustrated as he may be Mr .Devil also feels the
rush of task at hand and wants to go for the Kill …

Lines …..
Deep Growling voice ..signifies devils’s dark intentions .

“BeatingHeart still beating for the cause
FeedingSoul still feeding from the loss
AchingLimbs are aching from the rush
FadingYou are fading from my sight

Break of morning, coldness lingers on
Shroud me into nightmares of the sun

MovingI am moving closer to your side
LuringYou are luring me into the night
CryingWho is crying for you here
DyingI am dying fast inside your tears

Plunging towards bereavement faster yet
Clearing thoughts, my mind is set”





“exemplified by the stances like who is crying for u here …”



“Prey is singing ……” he is scared
suspicious about the movements of devil .

clean singing …..

Devious movements in your eyes
Moved me from relief
Breath comes out white clouds with your lies
And filters through meYou're close to the final word
You're staring right past me in dismay
A liquid seeps from your chestAnd drains me away

Mist ripples round your thin white neck
And draws me a lineCold fingers mark this dying wreck
This moment is mine

“ Devil changes his tone “ to attract his prey further (he is actually talking to the prey)
clean singing is apt for devils voice disguise

Help me cure you
Atone for all you've done
Help me leave you
As all the days are gone

“Doesn’t work …prey is still scared “Music builds the tension further …..excitement .
prey repeating his lines .

Guitaring at this stage is simply mindblowing ..over the fucking roof

”Devious movements in your eyesMoved me from relief
Breath comes out white clouds with your lies
And filters through meYou're close to the final word
You're staring right past me in dismay
A liquid seeps from your chestAnd drains me away

Mist ripples round your thin white neckAnd draws me a line
Cold fingers mark this dying wreckThis moment is mine
Night falls again Taking what's left of me”


calmness before the storm


“DEVIL reveals his true voracious self to the human “

GROWLING at its best…………………

Slight twist, shivering corpse
Ornated with water, fills the cracks
Clasped in my limbs by tradition
This is all you need

…………………conquers his prey .

Do Leave ur comments

Sanblazer.



"I don't see the point of playing in a band and going just one way when you can do everything. It would be impossible for us to play just death metal; that is our roots, but we are now a mishmash of everything, and not purists to any form of music. It's impossible for us to do that, and quite frankly I would think of it as boring to be in a band that plays just metal music. We're not afraid to experiment, or to be caught with our pants down, so to speak. That's what keeps us going
Mikael Åkerfeldt